18?

The past few weeks have been hectic. And when I mean hectic, I mean hectic. First, I ended up going to the hospital to get some dental work done, since I can’t seem to cooperate doing it any other way. I ended up staying home for 2 whole weeks. The first week was due to the fact that I had a cold, and the second week was due to the fact that it was “hospital policy”.

Anyhow, next week I turn 18. So far people are making the biggest fuss about it. Really I don’t see what’s so great about being 18. The only thing I’m looking forward to is that I’d no longer have to visit my father; I can stay home alone LEGALLY without having to worry about father constantly calling to see if I’m okay. Top that off, I’m 18. I can do whatever the hell I want. If I want to do something I no longer have to worry about the whole “NO! You can’t do that” anymore. But other than that? 18 is just a number to me. I don’t see the big deal about it since really… you don’t just suddenly completely change just because of some age.

Anyhow, for my birthday, I’m getting a new phone. I don’t have any clue on what kind I want yet. So far my choice is the BlackBerry. I looked at the rest of the phones that they have at AT&T and the only other one that pleased me was the Pantech Duo, since I can’t get the Tilt since its too expensive. But after reading the stats on the Pantech Duo my mind completely changed about the phone due to the bad reviews so I think I might get a BlackBerry.

Also, I’m stuck still looking for a job. Since I’m still 17, I can’t do much. I applied for some places but I know I’m not going to get hired. Why? Attendance is the key. >_>; But anyhow, when I turn 18 I’ll be mostly applying at bookstores, game stores, or video stores. Hell, maybe even Toys R Us if I’m desperate! I’m hoping that our nearest bookstore, Borders is hiring since it’s the most convenient place for me to work since it’s not too far from the house.

Probably when I get the money after I get a job, I’m going to use the money and buy myself a new domain. Really, I can’t stand SailorCrystals.net anymore. My Sailor Moon fanatic phase kind of ended. Sure I make RPGs out of it but other than that? I’m not as crazy about Sailor Moon as I was before. I had several names written down on my computer before my computer caught a virus, and I might try to rethink of what I thought. Maybe some songs may give me some inspiration… if not, then I don’t know. I might also plan on keeping this domain just for fun, but more than likely I’m going to change domains when I get a job. Then after that? Hopefully I can afford a Wii if I don’t get one for my birthday! ^_^’

Out with the old in with the new

I’ve think I’ve pretty much had enough of the internet. Its like a drug which if you get yourself attached to it, you can’t seem to get yourself detached. There’s too much drama going on rather people think about it or not. I think many of the problems involve past problems, in which I particularly do not wish to get into.

I’m hoping that once I start work, I can get my mind off of the internet life I have, and perhaps start something a new. I don’t know, like maybe make my life better than it currently is? I think I see too much of the same people every damned day of the week, including talk to them every damned day of the week that it just seems sickening. Not to mention with the constant talking behind backs, I don’t think I can put up with it much longer.

On the internet, no matter which group of friends I chose to be around with, I always seem to be the one that’s thrown into the backyard. This is also true with real life. I’m the one that no one ever seems to think is right when situations go bad. And quite frankly it’s sickening. From now on, I’ve decided that because of this, I will no longer give anyone advice on what to do, no longer care about what anyone does or says. From now on, you can shoot me for saying this, but it’s just going to be about me and my life, no one else’s. So for those of you who used to ask for things in the past, don’t bother. I no longer care anymore. That Vicky is now gone. Out with the old and in with the new!

In other news for the past few days I’ve been thinking about leaving the internet behind. I’ve been thinking about only being online for a certain amount of hours instead of being online 24/7 like I normally am. Seriously people. I need to get myself my life back on track. I’m failing school and no longer caring about what I do in life. I seem to only have two circles of friends in which some I don’t really consider friends anymore.

There are some groups I’m in, in which I’ve constantly been told to quit, simply because the groups alone are stressing me out. But I just can’t seem to quit. It’s like… there’s something holding me back from doing so in which I alone am getting aggravated on. But what’s a girl to do when you can’t seem to quit two things which a girl loves? I have no idea. This blog alone probably doesn’t even make any sense. Ha ha.

But to get to the point of this blog? Yes, I’m considering on shortening my hours, spending less time with people I spend time with every damned day of the week, and getting my priorities straight. I should have listened to a friend of mine along time ago when she suggested this to me when she saw that the internet life was simply stressing me out to death. When she told me this, I should have just gotten myself back on track by getting a JOB, and lessening my hours then and there. BUT NO. I’m too damn stubborn to do it.

But the good news? I did apply for several jobs. I tried applying for Beal’s (sp?), TJ-Max, Office Max, the Dollar Store, and Game Stop which I’m in the process of applying for. I’m considering on getting *shock* night hours which would mean from 4PM to like 8PM maybe? I don’t know, but either hours works for me just as long as I cut down. I’m hoping that those of you reading this, won’t think that I’m on crack or anything, or that I’ve hit my head with a baseball or whatever since I’m normally not the type of person to go do something like this. But as I said before – I NEED to get my life back on track here people. Even if it means having to stop doing things that I love, and changing me in the process.